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RINA TEO
 SIMPLE STUPID DUMB
03 DECEMBER 1992
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THIS IS ME.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009 2:19 AM

finally finish bai quan nuee wang, my queen.
it's a superb nice show.

i've learnt alot of things from her.
also, i think my life it's kinda like hers.
burying ourself with work.
live to work and work to live.

sometimes i'm wondering, what's really in me.
what's the effort i put in for?
slowly, i'm kinda clueless what's really within me.

do you all know.
what do you all live for?

sometimes, i know i'm tired.
but i put up a strong face.
i geng for what?

sometimes, i know i'm in pain.
but i dont shout pain.
i geng for what?

sometimes, i know i'm taken from granted.
but i dont shout for justice (even though i nagg alot)
i geng for what?

sometimes, i know my capabilities are just so limited.
but i never want to stop.
i geng for what?

maybe, i'm numb.
i've forgotten what i live for.
what i dream for.
what i hope for.
and what's tired, pain and taken for granted.

maybe i've already used to letting things be.
when i'm tired, i sleep.
when i'm in pain, i remain silent.
when i'm taken for granted, i pretend.
putting on a smiley face, pretending life's just absolutely perfect for me.

that's me, my life.
even the queen found her happiness, her reason to live.
when will i get mine?
sometimes, i want a break too.

a break doesn't mean staying at home to help mummy do her house chores.
a break doesn't mean staying at home to babysit her brother.
a break doesn't mean staying at home watching drama alone cos her good sisters are working and no longer have time for her.
a break doesn't mean staying at home cos of saving money.

sometimes, i dont even know what i can do for a break.
a break?
what's a break to me?
currently, a break to me is catching up with my homework.
helping mummy with house chores.
babysitting her brother.
working part time to earn extra cash.

slowly, my life is getting dull.
no life.
no sparks.
no colour.

it's like the laughing rina without her soul.
putting up a strong face.
the pretendence.
they're all making me so sick!

tell me.
how can i add colours to my life?