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oh god.

Monday, October 11, 2010 2:01 AM

to be blogging at this hour shows that nothing is right.
i'm awfully tired and this is my 5th night? (i lost count) that i cant get to sleep.
and what's worst? i wet my bed. not what you're thinking, but just in a nicer term wet.
anyway, tv programs scripts have proven that girls live longer because they know how to cry.
so it's not exactly a bad ting that i wet my bed! oh well~ perhaps i'm tired of being that strong girl wanna-be?

anyway, let me talk briefly about the title, oh god!
(since i cant sleep, just bear with me. anyway, its some sharing.)
read a few chapters of eat pray love after watching the movie today, i'm kinda in love with that.
i read this part about god.
so common question people would ask. what do you believe in?
could be jesus, whoever whoever.
but the author's answer is, Marvelous GOD! isn't it cool~
as in though she herself is a christian, but there're no biasness or prejudice at all.
i tink that's a beautiful answer!

this author actually prayed on the floor in her bathroom almost everynight!
cos she is really desperate for answers. of her life.
and everytime, she would say i need an answer desperately with tears on her face.
and she realise whenver she say god, please tell me what to do! abruptly, she ffinds that she's not crying anymore. instead of usual scenes where the devil and angels comes out, its more of true wisdom. true wisdom gives the only possible answer at any given moment.

"go back to bed, said this omniscent interior voice, because you dont need to know the final answer.
go back to bed, because i love you.
go back to bed, because the only thing you need to do now is get some rest and take good care of yourself until you know the answers.
go back to bed, so that when the tempest comes, you'll be strong eenough to deal with it."

i tink this is lovely~ with that in mind, tried to make myself to sleep, so i wouldn't think that much. but, i'm here so it's obvious that it had FAILED.

but oh well~ maybe should just get some sleeping pills? hah!

anyway, expected a way better for the one and only 101010.
but. oh well.
oh well.
oh well.

yupps, i did the most pathetic thing i should ever do to uphold my principles.
disappointing~

hope everything will be better as time passes.
but honestly speaking. this time is really tough.
painful.
sour.
challenging.

"MY MARVELOUS GOD I NEED AN ANSWER!"

let eat pray and love and hope that life really really gets better.